Standing Back Up
I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror today and I was almost shocked at the woman staring back at me. Seven months ago I never would have thought that I could be doing what I am doing now, hell I didn't think I could do anything at that point I had been beaten so far down from the person I was. For everyday the last nine years I have been battling the monsters inside me that try everyday to take me from this world, to take me away from my son who needs me. Up until September I thought those were the only monsters in my life, I had been blind to the fact that a real life monster slept under the same roof as me everyday. I was too afraid of the diseases taking me, too afraid of losing my son to let myself accept what was happening to me. Everyone tried for so long to help me see reality, but it wasn't something that could happen until I realized how far it had gotten, how far I had fallen, and in the end only I could be the one to stand back up and fight for both ...